happy song

I've been sitting dazed
watching life rush by
helpless noticing
i've been barely alive

pain's always been there for me
and even now as i feel so terribly alone
it balms my hurting insides
in a way i have never known

you tell me to write
a happy song
but how can pen down something
that seems inherently wrong

something so alien
so distant and unreal
with false promises
brutality it conceals...