Decide

every time
someone Else

Decides...

to Stay with me
to Walk out on me
to Give-In to me
to Give-up on me
to Push me
to Hold me back
to Steer me to "Self-proclaimed" right
to Avert me from "Self-loathed" wrong

someone Else
Decides...

how i must Not deceive
the very trust i Doubt
how i must be True to my promises
even if they no longer hold any Meaning

someone Else
Decides...

"Whom" i must love
"How" and "How much"
the last memories
i would be left with, to hold on to...

but people barely
Realize...

Try as i might
to hear the voice inside
i don't seem to have Earned the right
to Decide for my life, in their Eyes...

and Sadly enough
i Suspect they're Right...