Lie!

I lie right next to you

Yet i havent felt more distant

Your words or rather the lack of them

Play havoc in my head

I want to get up and leave

But my legs feel heavy as lead

My wet pillow burries itself

In this coffin of our bed

I'm grateful for these tears

Else i would've chocked and died

But my misery refuses to budge

Even long after they have dried

I see you roll your eyes away

At the sound of my passionate outpours

Your disappointment is palpable

As it drips from your every pore

I see the lines of my failures

Upon your weary face

Your sighs make mighty efforts

To fill this empty space

I hate myself around you

I feel lifeless and no good

And the worst is that it seems too late

To get any more false hopes from you

How come at these times

U dont remind me of how amazing i could b

How come others can see it
and say it so easily

I know you love me

Like no other

But is that enough to keep us

from destroying each other

How can we sustain this way

When you dont believe a thing i say

This love can feed us yes

But it is far from nourishing us

If you think we can go on this way

Its high time you realise - 

We're living an absolute lie

And its only a matter of time!