In love...

My sweet longings dance by
caress my aching heart
punctuated with sighs
I'm so in love
oh so madly in love
but not in love with u

i blink my dreamy eyes
head in my hands
imagination running wild
I'm so in love
oh so madly in love
but not in love with u


in love with

the reflection
that u mirror
the introspection
that you trigger
things i've never noticed
but always been
for once
i seem to be
in love with
me

Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

Sleeping alone

i dont quite understand
what just
happened here
walls frowning
at your screams
trying to plug their ears

sheets lying helpless
squashed
under your anger's weight
drenched
in the smell
only foolish pride dissipates

just what do you get
walking away
so far away from me
so many precious moments
of our lives wasted
cant you see

in any case
i know
i'm the one who'd have to b strong
to crawl up beside you
apologize
and get you back on

because you know
i love you deep down
till my bones
and i sure
just as much
hate sleeping alone


Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

Strange things in life...

You tell me real-life stories
that for me only existed in books
ideas i could have conceived
but simply overlooked

possibilities i
never considered
deep longings
parched enough to wither

you are the magician
you are your tricks too
you take me through feelings
i never felt before but always knew
You take me away
from the dark to the starry nights
you plant my own dreams
back into my eyes
you take me away
from the blacks and whites
you gently introduce me
to the strange things in life


it seems alright to look for
all that my heart desires
seems reasonable for once
to dance and burn in the same fire

i dont need to ask i dont need to confirm
i am allowed to foolishly yearn
i relish my secret treasures
i savor stolen moments of wistful pleasures

you are the magician
you are your tricks too
you take me through feelings
i never felt before but always knew
You take me away
from the dark to the starry nights
you plant my own dreams
back into my eyes
my unleashed instinct feeds
an intense need to feel alive
i now bask in the forbidden joys
of the strange things in life.

Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

For a song

i have been hurting all this while
but now i am thankful for my pain
i lost so much
so now there's only for me to gain
people say everything happens for the best
i have come quite far from right and wrong
they say everything happens for a reason
for me everything happens for a song...

Dr Manvi Gupta 2012

Anyone out there

Its 2am
im staring at the walls
i'm screaming in my head
but no one senses my desperate call

is dere anyone out there?
can anyone hear me?
anyone who can respond
to my plea for some company

to look inside my head
to sense despair crawling up upon my skin?
see where the hell i'm heading
and where i've already been

anyone out there
to hush my whimper
to keep insanity camouflaughed
in fits of my abrupt temper

anyone out there
to tell me its okay
anyone
someone who will stay...

you say we're all connected
in the realm of this gizmosphere
so if its all so telepathic
then why my cries no one can hear

you're fooling our survival instincts
our defence mechanism
its each man for himself
everything else is a whim!


Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

Antidote

My poison feeds me
halts me and leads me
cuts me open on the insides
devastates my own pride
dictates my fears
controls my mind
takes me round in circles
steals my time
my pain's greatest source
my inherent driving force
boths the hungry ocean
and the safe ship afloat
My poison...
remains its only antidote...


Dr. Manvi Gupta 2010

Not Guilty

I'm tired of being torn
at d face of small decisions
i'm wired to be alone
these times of my mind's derisions

i wanna b peaceful
not challenging myself all the time
no conflicts for once
my sanity is solely mine

no i'm not guilty
a verdict today, i pronounce myself
im not suppozed to be
caretaker of feelings of everybody else

im sick wondering what everyone wants from me
my hair,my clothes,my whims
needing approval
always squirming in my own skin

labelling myself
titles from ur vocabulary
tired of being what u want
from now on,i'm just gonna be me

no i'm not guilty
a verdict today, i pronounce myself
im not supposed to be
caretaker of feelings of everybody else

no im a not third rater,
no im not useless
definately not abnormal
and im not selfish
no where being lazy
i am confused yes
amused how much
i let you make me such a mess

no im not guity
a verdict today, i pronounce myself
but i am guilty coz
i havent loved myself enough!



Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

Love to die

Sitting here
in dim lights
something still
hurting my eyes
high on music
low on regrets
sipping away life
is my last bet

n if in this moment
when im singing to myself
with rain tapping lightly
on my door
if time
suddenly holds still
i'd have no regrets
none at all anymore

with a smile on my face
i'd wink a happy goodbye
no pain you could trace
no more wasting life

here right here
resting to nature's lullaby
preserved in time's unread history
i'd close my eyes just now and love to die


Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

Ten droughts of silence

Ten droughts of silence
puntuated with sighs of thirst
then an alien sprinkle of emotion
upon the parched earth

Fumes of shocked greed
rise up the surface
wary of being sucked dry
holding tightly to its newfound moisture

The defiant roar of thunder
then a nonstop downpour
as if vowing to never run out
till the land can take no more

The sun no longer shy
smilingly peeps down the sky
nudging the newly planted dreams
ready to blossom in the hopeful evergreen


Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

Fragile

She can't quite decide
what she's more scared of
too many people around
or of being lonely

She's afraid to trust
but takes only a moment forlorn
to reveal her life story
to someone completely unknown

She see's only what she wants to see
blind to most things real
thinks twice before stepping out of her comfort zone
wont blink before taking greatest dangers head on

So fragile...

She cant deny her feelings
right or wrong
still she keeps looking
for approval from everyone

Afraid to hum herself to sleep
her favourite lullably
she'd gladly sing her heart out
to a passerby

A rebel who wants to
see her parents proud
drenched in silence
while her insides scream and shout

So fragile
in denial...


 Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012