THANK YOU MEHAK FOR INSPIRATION!!! This one is FOR YOU! :)

is this happiness
when you smile so wide, your eyes water
the freedom...
when nothing or noone no longer matters
the insight
that takes people searching in the himalayas
the joy we seek....
from holding a child in our arms
Is this the look
that we want to have on our face before taking our last breath
the purpose
bigger than any ambition or wealth...

Is this pure ecstasy
or just an emotional surge
if this is bliss
upon merely touching the tip of this iceberg...
then how would it be
to be in love forever
to feel the lightness one feels after crying
to be forever embraced
by the universe....

Little Diamond

You were a gift
i saw you sparkle
a little diamond
stirring in my life
you began to shine
your aura blinded everyone
they were intimidated
how could something so precious be in their care
there had to be something wrong there
they were scared
you'd change their life forever
you'd take them off their cushion
you'd challenge them in every way
you'd demand their faith and strength
you were asking for too much
more than they could give
so they decided to nip you in the bud
they cursed you for all that ever went wrong since
they wished you were never born

forgive me
that i let them succeed
in making me hate you
making me me doubt you
making me wish i had never realised you
till your flame began to flicker
with all the layers of blame piled up on you
forgive me
for i no longer can bear to see you dying this way

i give you my hand
come back to me
come save me
come i will embrace you
come i will protect you with my life
come take your seat within me
my little diamond
shine my love
shine so bright
that the world basks in your divinity
and bows down to your sheer magnificence

Monster!

He lives in my House
He sleeps most of the time
We wakes up once every few months
When he smells something that he can ruminate on
Then he growls
On the top of his voice
As the neighbourhood shivers with fright
He bangs doors
Breaking whatever comes in his way
And when he's done scaring me
He goes back into his dungeon
Until the next time
Hush be quiet
U dont want to wake up the monster
That resides
Deep inside
Us all...

I Love you..

I love you...
I know  you don't believe me
yes its true...
I make promises I never keep

I make these grand plans...
that i cant remember next day
I squirm trying to stay put...
while I'm make plans to run away

I say one thing...
then do another
I know you wonder...
if this would be the case forever

i don't have all the answers
Don't trust a single word I say to you
but know that inspite of all this mess
I sure do love you...

Shhhhh...

Shhhhh...
hear the quiet
i'll shut the door
if that's required
draw in the curtains
for you seem shy
what will it take
for you to reply
to all these questions
driving me insane
i'm waiting for your turn
as we play this game

Relax
as we toy
with all this unrest
i seem to enjoy
is it for a reason
as they say?
or is it here
this time to stay?
has life shown
all its cards yet ?
or is it still to reveal
who eventually wins this bet

Say something
my love
its now or never
for i'm about to give up
i dare to ask you
one final time
is this the end,
or another trick played by my mind?
i need you this once
more than ever
my voice speak up now
or be silenced forever...

Love Song...

i just cant wait to get home to you
to see that twinkle in your eyes
the way you put yourself in my hands
a trust whose worth i barely realise...

the way you know what's going on within
as you rest your head on my knee
a joyous meditation
being alone with you is all i need...

And so we sit together
in our silence
no advice
or big words to preach
and as we bond
to each other
we listen to our
silence speak...

i'm grateful for so many second chances
it takes you no time to forgive me
i can hardly reciprocate how
i'm loved unconditionally

when i'm away,i miss your presence
like my shadow,always next to me
there's nothing you ever ask for
my company is all that you seek...

And so we sit together
in our silence
no advice
or big words to preach
and as we bond
to each other
we listen to our
silence speak...

Burn...

Lusting for the unknown
like a moth to a flame
always playing to lose
this irresistible game

Attracting chaos
risk running in my veins
hunting for crisis
adventure my middle name

Feeding on thrill
no perception of fear
distorted view of the world
is one i hold dear

Surviving on the rush
of adrenaline in my brain
now that i've tasted blood,
life can never be the same again!

Losing to a subconscious
housing demons untamed
each time i rise like the phoenix
only to get burnt again...

Accident!

i wonder sometimes
howcome we exist
was this all designed
or creation just stumbled to reality
maybe-
there is no fate to direct us
no force of nature to affect us
no divinity to select us
no poetic romance to connect us
maybe we're all here
simply by accident
just by accident...

Maybe
family is just familiarity
and love just a play of hormones
children just a need to procreate
and god just a name for our fears
maybe-
there is no fate to direct us
no force of nature to affect us
no divinity to select us
no poetic romance to connect us
maybe we're all here
simply by accident
just by accident...

1st August,Friday,5:42 pm,2014

happy song

I've been sitting dazed
watching life rush by
helpless noticing
i've been barely alive

pain's always been there for me
and even now as i feel so terribly alone
it balms my hurting insides
in a way i have never known

you tell me to write
a happy song
but how can pen down something
that seems inherently wrong

something so alien
so distant and unreal
with false promises
brutality it conceals...

The ache...

i lie in my bed
waiting for your fragrance to fill my world
to illuminate my eyes
to awaken my senses
goosebumps on my skin
waves running down me
drowning in your mouth
bringing to life
a full blooded woman
draped in sensuality
seeking
demanding
strong
enough to let you go
feeding from your body
possessing your soul
leading you
in the dance of passion

come my lover
merge with me
in a way
we cant figure out
where one begins
and the other ends
flow into me
take me
make ravishing love to me
just for tonight
and then walk away
so i can bask in your afterglow
so i can ache for you all over again....