i know

i know now...
how much you have hated me
all this while
you would disallow
the pursuit of my passion
like an unspoken vow


far more than my ability
you've been scared of
my vulnerability
motives i forget to consider

threats and dangers

i'm unable to decipher

you'd want me to stay cozy
in my comfortable cage
to keep me away
from the war
you were sure i'd lose
if i set out to wage

afraid of seeing me
preyed upon
by the big bad world
that i might be
caught unprepared
for the troubles unfurled

my safety
more precious to you
than my wistful freedom
while i wondered
for the lack of conviction
what wrong had i ever done


with all your life
you would do just anything
to protect me somehow
all this while
how much you have loved me
i know now...




© Dr. Manvi Gupta 2010