WHO am i?

who am i?

if not for my up's and downs
if not for my smiles and frowns
one moment i'm tragic
next moment i'm a clown

who am i?

if not the crazy one
who gets so excited
over the smallest things
trying in vain to forget
the unending sadness
my thoughts bring

who am i?

if not the beautiful mess
that i carry within
the bomb inside
with the clock ticking

who am i?

if not the drama queen
always attracting crisis
willing to do anything
for perfect moments to exist

who am i?

when all this is over
will i lose my magic?
the weaving of words?
the enchantment of possibilities?
the delusion of life?
will i recognise myself?
will you ?
will you still love me....
without my madness?
without my being "me"?

Mani, 11:17pm, 2014