Drama Queen !

Dont look so bored
soon you will be
thoroughly entertainment
by her whims and fancies

out to prove herself
riding on her fragility
rose-tinted glasses
the world,she sees

faultering and fumbling
with reality
she lives in the imaginary realm
she knit in her dreams

she flirts with danger
seduces with innocense
risking her life
at no expense

she plays with fire
with a thrill she can barely contain
she'll spin your world
and not care to explain

she dances to the illusion
of love too good to be true
she is every man's fantasy
she will surely devour you

she makes love to music
she lusts for loyalty
drenched in her passions
gambling with insanity

she survives because she craves
she will make you her slave
then drive you away
to test if she's brave

her life a running movie
one frame at a time
each moment of absolutely perfection
to her own Design

its time for applause
for the performance
you have just seen
bow down to the drama queen!

Mani,13 May,5:30 am,2014

hide?

don't want to be locked in this room
but cant step outside
is there some part of me
where i could safely hide?

where clarity pushes
all doubts aside
where paradoxes don't relish
the conflict inside

where there is no room
for fear to thrive
where love and hate
don't dare collide

where passions
set rules to abide
and logic cant take me
for a ride

could this be the home
i have long sought to reside
in my graveyard of dreams
i might come across-life?

Mani,13th May, 4:30 am,2014

???

where is everyone?
my friend?strangers?family?
where are you when i need you?
to be right here, next to me?

where are the self-appointed?
so-called guides?angels?guru's?
why aren't they watching over me?
do they have better things to do?

there is no one here
to hear my silent screams
no extraordinary miracle
designed to save me?

there is only my despair
that refuses to abandon me
the only friend i have
one i wish i didnt need

it embraces me gently
while it chokes the life out of me
feeding on my memories
devouring my peace

i watch the brutal onslaught
imprisoned helplessly
as i wait for it to lull me
into an endless sleep...

Mani,13th May,2:30 am,201

Brighter side

I've been running
all this while
rushing back and fro
through time
they say we are
our greatest friends
but it seems
to be a lie

i hope to take refuge
from my home
but i can barely
call it my own
so i search for
someplace new
far away from
me and you

where do i run and hide
carrying these fragile insides
will the sun ever turn around
so i can look at the brighter side...

Mani,21st April,12:30 pm,2014

The Promise...

i cant promise
i wont give in to my fancies sometimes...
but i promise...
i will always keep you in mind

i cant promise
there wont ever be bad days
but i promise...
i will look for the silver linings every possible way

i cant promise
i wont sink in the quicksand of despair and doubts
but i promise...
i will reach out for your hand to pull me out

i cant promise
i wont drive you out of your mind
but i promise...
i will win you back each time

i cant promise
i wont sometimes be one you'll barely recognise
but i promise...
that i will always love you,whether or not we realise


Mani,5th May,12:45pm,2014

Together?

i'm sorry its been so hard
all these years for you
i worry what a toll
it might have taken on you
but trust me,
i dint intend it
i dint even realise
what was happening to me,
what it was doing to you
what it was talking away from us...

i cannot begin to imagine
what would have gone
through your mind
all this time...
what a nightmare
to see your person hide
behind shadows
you didn't quite recognise...

so i ask you today...
can we start over,
you and me
with a fresh perspective
once again
write our destiny
pretend all this never happened
that we never missed out on each other
as though we were born right this moment
so we could open our eyes to this world, together...

Mani,5th May,12:30 pm,2014