happy song

I've been sitting dazed
watching life rush by
helpless noticing
i've been barely alive

pain's always been there for me
and even now as i feel so terribly alone
it balms my hurting insides
in a way i have never known

you tell me to write
a happy song
but how can pen down something
that seems inherently wrong

something so alien
so distant and unreal
with false promises
brutality it conceals...

The ache...

i lie in my bed
waiting for your fragrance to fill my world
to illuminate my eyes
to awaken my senses
goosebumps on my skin
waves running down me
drowning in your mouth
bringing to life
a full blooded woman
draped in sensuality
seeking
demanding
strong
enough to let you go
feeding from your body
possessing your soul
leading you
in the dance of passion

come my lover
merge with me
in a way
we cant figure out
where one begins
and the other ends
flow into me
take me
make ravishing love to me
just for tonight
and then walk away
so i can bask in your afterglow
so i can ache for you all over again....

That (Man & Woman)!

He's not "that man"

the one you seem to hate

the one you cant tolerate

is this the best you can do---

she's not "that woman"

after all that she has done

for simply everyone

especially for you-

these two-

cant be doing that bad

after all the love

that they've had

still if its true

then i wish
"that man" & "that woman"

do perish

so they're

dusted off to reveal 

a loving couple
underneath... 

Mani,10th June,6:30pm,2014

The wait...

I wait...
Holding my breath
Seemingly dead

I hear...
creaks of the non living
from a past that's unforgiving

I give...
Flesh to my fears
My own creations haunting me

I watch...
My thoughts hitting random walls
denting my sanity,taking a toll

I ache...
For some heaviness in my eyes
That takes me away from my plight

I drown...
In a senseless dream
not designed by me

I fly...
On wings of peace
Intoxicated with relief...

Mani, 31st May, 2:30 am

Save?

Tell me you will save me
You who wakes me up
You who tucks me into bed

Tell me you will help me
You who keeps me up
You who tricks me to sleep

Tell me you will protect me
You who gives me jitters
You who holds me together

Tell me you will take away all that i dread
That u will either fix or shut down
The conflict in my head!

Mani,31st May,2:15 am,2014

Light...

Dark it was..
Infinitely hollow
Trying to swallow
me alive...

Hope
so much farther
that my arms could barely reach it
for me to survive...

And just when i thought
there was nothing left of me to save
just when i gave up
and began to dig my grave
I saw a wicker of light
so warm and bright
like the parched to the oasis
I reached out to life...

Mani,31st May,1:15 am,2014