Welcomes You...

to feed your senses on its treasures

Monday, July 3, 2017

Asking too much?

Am i asking for too much
To be accepted with my flaws
That i constantly keep working on..

Am i asking for too much
To be respected for standing by
Things i've always believed in...

Am i asking for too much
When i ask to be truly loved...?

Hear me...

Tell me
What will i have to do
to be truly heard by you
N if you cannot do so much as
lend me your ear
Then there is nothing left to do, i fear
This heart shall keep bleeding   
Every single day 
drop by drop
Till its drained dry
of all love for you...

Scream

It crawls up my throat
Threatening to expose my heart
I suck in my breath, deeper
So the stiffling can't escape

Tears sting my eyes
I push them back in
I know i mustn't cry
Cant let anyone know just yet

But then there is one
Who hears my silent screams
Who reads every thought
taking shape in the crevices of my mind

And try as i might 
to bottle up all the chaos inside
I can't shield or hide 
The truth from the one who resides
Within...

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Begin again...

It poured its heart put and pushed off the veil from my eyes
And i saw the bluest of the blue skies
After our past has been dusted off by the rain
Maybe its time to begin again...

Friday, June 16, 2017

Opaque

My unanswered questions bounce off u
Harder back at me, piercing me like splinters
I cant see a thing....cant see through you...
You're a stranger
I'm supposed to love?
N why? What have you done so great that i must even try...
Your words & shocking behaviour haunt me
I'm beginning my greatest journey with
One i do not seem to know at all
I dont know what you think or feel
Has there been any change in your last known beliefs
Is this some negotiation we've entered that i'm not even aware of!
You've deprived me of my greatest peace
For you've robbed me of precious sleep
Hell...you are so opaque
Its something i just cannot take!

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Intimacy!

This is pure intimacy
Us in our little world
Bound by the cord of love
This private space of ours
That no one can ever touch!

I havent seen you yet
But there's so much we've 
Already seen together
We started our journey with a great test
One we overcame by sheer resilience
we sailed through...
Holding on to each other!

You've yet to touch the ground
But you've already won a war!
You are brave, my love
And i'm proud of you!

Proud to be forever yours
& blessed to have you as mine!


Friday, May 5, 2017

Done!

I want to be happy
That has nothing to do with you
I'm done putting happiness in your hands
You're not good enough to deal with such a power
If my happiness stays preserved in your presence i will stay
Else i wont subject myself to your negativity,

You whom - 
I constantly have to explain myself to
I have to keep asking respect from
Convince that life wont necessarily be tedious with me
Im done pretending life isnt already hard being with you.
Done ignoring how poorly you've been "trained" to deal with stress and even life in general
Done trying to smile through your indifference and insensitivity
Done wondering which of your statements are true or otherwise...
Done seeing all your double standards for yourself
Done admiring your sense of timing and escapism as a way of life
Done with you punishing me because you say you lost yourself which you dont take responsibility for!
Done being with a dry, passionless person who takes relationships for granted 
And clearly invests himself solely in "practical things" like work, saving money and self-pleasure
Done with ur fault-finding
Done with ur list of expectations from me when you wince at even the thought of fulfilling a few of mine
Who do you think you are,
Some gift of god?
I have no obligation, no compulsion or desperation to be with you

i want to be happy
So i'm going to be happy
With or without you...
For I always have me...

Monday, May 1, 2017

Enough!

Need to be truly loved
Just as i am...
By some who can
Someone...a man...
Not made of just about any stuff
But a man, who's man enough!

Thursday, April 20, 2017

My love...

My love...
I love you
I cherish you
Every moment i feel joy within me
Every iota of me rejoices at your divine existence
I'm so grateful to have you
I'm blessed to have been chosen by you
This is a heavenly opportunity you have given me to feel perpetual happiness 
I promise to love you
And always be there for you
I'm yours forever as you're mine
My love...


Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Perfect!

You don't talk
& i'm not supposed to talk
Its perfect!
Silence...

Monday, April 17, 2017

The enemy!

I dangle between
Needing you
And
Despising you...

I find me living with a stranger
Its like sleeping with the enemy
Except most of us make sure
To know our enemy well...


Sunday, April 16, 2017

Just u & me

Its just you & me baby!
Everything else is incidental!
Everyone else is accidental!
All except you and me...
We were meant to be!

Friday, April 14, 2017

Tip-Toe

I refrain from saying i love you
hesitant to ask if you love me too
Afraid to hear bland silence 
as your reply
keep trying to walk ahead
treading on thin ice
wondering which one of us 
will crack up first!
So i tip-toe around
the feeling they call love
playing peek-a-boo
I wonder if what i thought was a smile
in the collage of your erractic moods
some kind of clue!
I stare in the face of destiny
The greatest mystery of all
How do i make you fall 
in love with me.. 

Friday, January 20, 2017

How did it come to this...?

A smile
A sigh
A stolen kiss

A dream
Desire
We made a wish

Big plans 
To win
The world's happiness

We walked on
Blinded
Through the mist

But somewhere along
Where did we slip
I see us fall apart
Wonder where we missed
Now my broken heart it asks
Has it come to this?
How did it come to this...?


Saturday, January 14, 2017

Lie!

I lie right next to you
Yet i havent felt more distant
Your words or rather the lack of them
Play havoc in my head

I want to get up and leave
But my legs feel heavy as lead
My wet pillow burries itself
In this coffin of our bed

I'm grateful for these tears
Else i would've chocked and died
But my misery refuses to budge
Even long after they have dried

I see you roll your eyes away
At the sound of my passionate outpours
Your disappointment is palpable
As it drips from your every pore

I see the lines of my failures
Upon your weary face
Your sighs make mighty efforts
To fill this empty space

I hate myself around you
I feel lifeless and no good
And the worst is that it seems too late
To get any more false hopes from you

How come at these times
U dont remind me of how amazing i could b
How come others can see it
and say it so easily

I know you love me
Like no other
But is that enough to keep us
from destroying each other

How can we sustain this way
When you dont believe a thing i say
This love can feed us yes
But it is far from nourishing us

If you think we can go on this way
Its high time you realise - 
We're living an absolute lie
And its only a matter of time!