To My Guardian Angel...

My guardian angel
where are you?
give me a sign
so i know
you're right here
by my side
i long for you
to touch my life
come and
rescue me
from this darkness
release me
from my chains
so i can
stop carrying
the world
on my shoulders
embrace me
and hold me close
so tight
that i merge into you
and hide
whisper slightly
in my ears
the answers
i'm craving to hear
who is my god?
what is my belief?
what is my tragedy?
what is my passion?
why this affinity?
to pain and drama
when will i
step out of
the snapshots
and see the panorama?


Mani 2013

I Grieve...dedicated to Bua.

i'm sorry
i couldn't bear it
i couldn't cry...
i couldn't sit still
i just walked about
and worked
till i dropped dead
at the end of each day
as if it would stop
the inevitable from happening
as if
everything would be alright
pretending to be strong
only succeding to feel
strangely numb
tears would prick my eyes
but i would nudge them back
deep inside...some recess of my soul

the few moments
i managed
to hold your hands
to look into your eyes
i hope you felt me breaking
you heard my heart weeping
and even though
i was caged inside myself
i hope you felt me
reach out to you
somewhere...somehow...

and now
with each new day
i grieve...
every molecule of me...
it hurts
to feel
the emptiness of you
to know
i can't physically
touch you...
or hear your voice...
and no matter
how hard i try
i can't quite
turn back time
so i grieve...
in the only way i know
i dont know how
long will it go on
i guess life and time
will teach me...

I pray
you're in a comfortable space now
your're warm and happy
always smiling
your beautiful smile...
May god bless you
and hold you close
i want you to
know...
i love you
i miss you
i remember you
i hold dear in my heart
your thoughtful gestures
that light up my memories
your fragrance
that lingers
your afterglow
that heals me...


Mani 2013

Dream

i'm finding it hard
to catch some sleep
thoughts dancing in my head
havent been able to spend
much time with you lately
miss hearing things about your day
n then i catch a glimpse of  you
across the bed
n a smile comes over me
melting my fatigue
how my heart still
manages to skip its beat
is still an intrigue
n i say a silent prayer
thank god you're here
with me in this precious moment
feel like peeping deep
inside your dream
and whispering in your ear
to keep a little room in there for me.


© Dr. Manvi Gupta 2010

My madness

Hold on little one
i know you're going crazy
dont know what to do with you sometimes
to hold you back or let you be

you guide me like a saint
but when i get there you desert me
i'm handed over to the devil
and then im at his mercy

but by then the act is done
and i'm left to the hands of fate
you seem to have already won
its too late

then i swear,i wont listen to you
but i get tempted all over again
because by now,you've become my need
my greatest joy,my greatest pain

so let me not retaliate
let me simply give in to you
never again,think over
let things happen like theyre meant to

so i bow down to you my madness
you can conquer my destiny in a single glance
i give you my body,i give you my soul
my madness,take over me and dance

Dr Manvi Gupta 2006

Whirlwind

My mind
like empty canvas
you drew your lines
and left a mess
when i found out
it was really my own
you tore off my pages
and fed them to a storm

Dr. Manvi Gupta 2006

I write

Dont worry my friend
i will continue to fight
as long as there is pain
i will continue to write

Some people write to get appreciation
others for their memory revival
some  for the sake of passion
me-well i write for my survival


Dr. Manvi Gupta 2006

Addiction

i need an addiction
to feed my senses
to keep me dangling between
past and present tenses
to give me
a false sense of security
to stimulate the otherwise
dead ghost of creativity
an addiction
to keep me longing
and craving
a compulsion
forever enslaving
that gives me enough pain
makes my heart
ache over and over again
in drops of bizarre expression
my hurt bleeds out trickling
words i cant quite explain
words i can only hope to sing

Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

Longing

its been hours
tossing and turning in my bed
dont know what i'm waiting for
i guess im longing for you
the touch of your skin
you irresitible smile
the feel of ur fingers
in my hair
snapshots of you
passing before my eyes
waiting for the next moment
when i'l get to hold
you in my arms
be lost in ur all seeing gaze
and feel like a princess again
so promise me u'll come
into my dream tonight
hush my aching heart for now
and put some sleep into my eyes

 Dr. Manvi Gupta 2011

The lesson

i'm not in pain
you're leaving
we meet some people for a reason
some flowers bloom for just one season

people touch our lives
and when nothing's left to say
they fade into recesses of our memory
to slowly melt and fade away

so thank you my friend
for being a part of my life
for awakening my senses
and deepening my insight

whether you gave me joys
or sadness or hurt
for each smile or tear shared with you
there was a valuable lesson learnt.



Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012

In love...

My sweet longings dance by
caress my aching heart
punctuated with sighs
I'm so in love
oh so madly in love
but not in love with u

i blink my dreamy eyes
head in my hands
imagination running wild
I'm so in love
oh so madly in love
but not in love with u


in love with

the reflection
that u mirror
the introspection
that you trigger
things i've never noticed
but always been
for once
i seem to be
in love with
me

Dr. Manvi Gupta 2012