let me...

let me go...
i can barely breathe
i need to scream
this silence is killing me

let me free
from my crippling depency
I've barely stood
on my own two feet

let me grieve
for the loved one,long deceased
i used to know
someone like me...

Mani,11pm,22nd April,2014

the Question?

Is this love?
or just a need...
upon which conveniently
our insecurities feed

If this is love
then why does it seem
to suck out the passions
from our very being?

into some dark pit
I can't quite reach
as I shirk away
from practicing all that I preach

My core drained hollow
while something grows inside
this emptiness,gnawing me away
like a parasite

So do we jump right in
and combat our fears
or let lives drift away...
helplessly,through the years

or do we part from each other
to figure out, what all this means
curl up in our solitary cocoons
till we're ready to spread our wings

so we can answer the question
that looms over our dreams-
Do we need each other or just ourselves,
to feel truly- complete?

Mani,11pm,21st April,2014

The Essence...

i never want to forget ....
when i ceased to fear the dark
when i could look long and deep into the mirror
when i heard the choking voice of my mother

i never want to forget the most nourishing meal i had
garnished with overwhelming tears
the Bitter-sweetness of losing something dear
and then finding it back when one nearly stops looking

i never want to forget
the showreel of my journey
that i so often thought of of destroying
while each scene had indeed been flawlessly executed

and yet in spite of an imperative past
i find myself at an interesting juncture
when fate has given me the privilege
of unfolding a blank scroll
to write my destiny all over again...
when nature has given its consent
for my transcendence....
how blessed i am...
to be reincarnated every day
how innocent i am...
to be able to look at the world with childlike wonder in my eyes
how beautiful i am...
to be draped in the majestic robe of sheer intensity
how fortunate i am...
to be able to tread along the brink of the surreal
how versatile i am...
for every imagery i've been given to etch with my flesh and blood
how precious i am...
fragile,vulnerable,yet perfect like a newborn baby...

to whoever's up there, running the show-
i accept your designs for me
i applaud your sense of humour
i have but one expectation from life...
i sure want this to be one helluva ride! ;)

My Love...

Come my love...
come into my arms
you're only 4
so innocent
not knowing whom to trust
and how much
you're to be protected
but how
with a big bad world around you
waiting to pounce on you
come i'll take you in my arms
and keep you safe...

Come my love...
come into my arms
you're only 11
confused
soon to take a step towards womanhood
scared
ignorant of facts
of whats to happen
that may change you
and how the world looks at you from now on
come i'll take you in my arms
and make you realise...
you're a normal kid...

Come my love...
come into my arms
you're barely 13
ready to take on the world
a rebel rockstar
you have you're life chalked out
your friends don't understand you
grown ups say you're a fool
you know nothing
and you never will know enough
to be your own master
come i'll take you in my arms
and show you...
you're amazing
you're exceptional...
you have what it takes to achieve you're dreams...

Come my love
come into my arms
you're now 18
you allow being bulldozed into the most important decision of you're life
you give in
with a jittery confidence
hopes crumbling
you submit
come i'll shake you up
for you're not weak,
you're just conflicted
come i'll take you into my arms
and urge you to hush all that's not you
listen to the voice inside...

Come my love
come into my arms...
you're now 21
deeply resentful
stuck in black's and white's
isolated
friendless
at war with yourself
and the world around
afraid of everything that were once your passions
come i'll take you into my arms
and warn you...
though you're fighting with all your might
you're fighting the wrong battles...

Come into my arms
you're now 23
more confused than ever
heart broken
shattered
deserted
in your pits
repulsive to the idea of happiness
addicted to the drug of pain
come into my arms
i'll pick you up and put you back together
reassure you...
this is not the end of the world
you have a lot to be grateful for...

Come into my arms
you're now 24
running away
from all that hurts
trying to flutter with broken wings
you fall out of the nest
into the jungle
still far from flying
you struggle
outsmarted by
tricks played by your mind
come i'll take you in my arms
and comfort you...
you're home is right here
within you...

come into my arms
you're now 29
thirsting for answers
shocked at revelations
and suddenly
the pieces fit together
the weight lifts off your shoulders
yet you grieve at the lost years
the anguish burns your soul
helpless at being cheated by time and consequence
at decisions you did ,but didn't quite make...
come i'll take you in my arms
and show you
what life is trying to tell you
the essence behind each twist and turn
so you can finally...
unconditionally
accept the past
all that you have been
all that you could have been
all that you are today
and all that you'll ever be
embrace yourself tight
and know that its okay
you'll be alright...
you'll always have me by your side
i,your creativity,your shadow,your spirit,you're depth,you're voice,you're intuition...
watching over you till the end of time...

Mani,1st April,2014